Question me.. Inside my mind you question me. I feel u pondering..qho am i who are you..are you good or bad..am i good or bad in ur mins..mind needs to tgink think of what. Why do we think what do we think about. Minds go to security mind goes tp safety. What would youthink if i didnt know me..what would o thinl if i ddod not knpw you..a mind is creative original eveb. We all need safety i could feel you even before..i knew you tip toed on my privacy. Tried to not devour ne.. But u dod not knoe eho you be.so u needed to find out..who u be in me.maybe an answer to whi you are.an answer deep inside a man a man u needed to see to knoe thydelf..you needed to see a man to compare yourself too. U needed to watch him all alone vlbecause you aleays thought what it would be like for thrm to know you but u could not..as hpw else could they know you..how else could u get them there to see you..to see another..as i as you..as they question you you question me as no question should ever be..buy we hear if them..the bad ones that we dont wabt to be or for them to think. So where are they wherebare the bad ones..and how do they be how do they see..are they me...?

Are you the bad one to ehat they see are you scared of ego u could be in their eyes in your eyes in my eyes...we fear the aelf but from feat we are born...frofear we see..from fear we are supposed to be.
One if all we are is fear as we dont see eachither inside we dont know how we should be..what if we just need to knoe were good than we do as we should.mind s creative ofbwhT u couldbsee..its alm inside if me..what he could be is only whT you could see.
I see u and me but my me is more your you not knowing you or me when the same we are deep insife..we alk want goid we all fear beeing bad..

Rant antijason

So u inspect every memory anbi my  recollection is so out obqacj  you accusbme.oblying anbexagwrayw  my tendencies. A simple encounter innisent in every  way to you is syr8 up evil minded.
U see only way u think is me. Who I benis who I say. Young man made an Erie was mesed with and now ubyink u know me..when I know I revulted and itwas against the grain completely...to kill a manfor a mistaken memory many reasons if other things xouldnit be. However I reserve the right to have final say.
Many years went b after what you say I oh lived so much and the whole city goes against me for a lie that you abide by..ilyou are so good so knowing .
U hi by invading and thinking u know.
I did not ant
And the future shows how much.
Not hay I know now was realized in my past
You are not showed.

I am honest about it how I remember Andi you see otherwisethan you see something else
I'm a man deserving of everything
And integrity u have toward it all
Just young 25 yeatvlatebu think
I from one. B's  memory will create my character. I know I'm made for her period.fucknunsonmucj gid I hate you.nit caught at LLkisten tinta abtreat get you..what a fucker an peoplbsu j
So fuxking evil
She's all I want and need asshe. Ingrained in me..fick you
Uoubwtong u s e what u be by..
Beer liked as ik nitvthta way
If I abivau

No not attactevt all
Told u must havvb. Thvvalium
Asshe made me not are
That's it
Don't make.me a child molester out if this
I can s2
U know she was trying to show herself

In some way
Either to make me in
Something or rinshownitherc
She has anwomamlt type obbosy already
Or both.
But his is at the healm and does things mysteriously
Even if which it's nottongobtgrew all thisnevwr a.lir
No.memoey of it
Why don't u get that part.
Nevernlikebhim ohithers it's such definitely no ashole
Live w him fohyear not one thoughits sick
Tomme
He was toojustbtbe Valium.im sure pkusnheiu wuthd
Undo u murdervabgiid an ashole..
Easy to see it her in only attracted to at the right age
Invade me inside tell mbqhr to do
I can see anyirm and juDge he ageqiyjiut bewing untrusted.
Crazy
Every man is good and has no bad intentnonbadintwnt
All going oat once nothways
I can see and juDge her age
But u first.
U doubt suspect
Only on and on like
U know..
Girls ..innocent.
Ronsee
No oedephulw foe seeing a girl and not fu lusting...asni can seejuatba body as a while unhac to to see
Maybe not t good manne s.
Still can't see ..
Curious as to who I. Seeing.but ur right it looks.kinx obba but your too afraid
Too in your mind blank about it
Like I'm molesting a 6 yeah oldby seeing a
Female only
Act like I'm some aeial killer wud be betteri ay
But u all the way u acis
Even worse
Without aw ubyink u can act anyway
18. Law but I can be mean
And untrusting
And liars..
Jason I was not attracted to
Not surebgr ubsaw
But I'm not into guys asshole

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needed my clonidine a cop letting or not letting me feel it got worried worried he wouldnt trust the feeling like hed be paranoid not about me doing or beeing any bad way just that wjy would they take it in the first place a sense of trust with a COP THAT TIME AFTERT THRY PUT THAT MEMORY IN MY HEAD/GGGGGGV LFKLK       TRYIMG TO BLAIM ME FOR EVERYTHINH LIKE U HERE HAS NO EFFECT..,, if u accuse without relief or even say why this why thatr,,the brain gets worried about because were all connected to eachothetr,,,, like a worsr casse scenerio thougfht..like  were going along in the car theres peole it is1
f;;ee;ing watvche dwhen someones there zoe feels loooked ythrough like  ur controlling tjhere are regulat people in the world,,u give some back im not completeley used tto getting it back   mind knows someomne gave it back or is in control of u its all from tyhere perspective how u feel,,  so even inj4,,,,coming from a lacxe of guiltr im tryinmg to exlplain an innivent personb couldntr sau whjy whatever thoiught doesnt happen rightr now plus it was more a quick feeking in body that the brfain anylyzed bad not whatr i really fealt,,,thoughts not trysted ebnoughso  iot thinks something in terms o;sxl;.....lirwerLLY A  FEELING FOR A SECOND OF  worse case sceneio thinking,,,kinda like that,, where u knew itd be taken away if u thought or like they used to say there trying to leave,,,and i knew if i thought anything that looked like im bad theyd stay thta swhy every time id say or think by mi

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journal of events regarding baker brian the man who once was. as hey continue their personality smear and accusatory gestures all day long and night. latest is a memeory i shared with them approx 2 years ago reharding my normality around family members the last known memory before mind control regarding my good status as a human male. somehow in this memeory they see me acting as though i want not to be a part of the goings on and somehow attribute this to a reason for mind control/ this was partly dissolved as to my personality and perhaps in a bad mood... there was nothing in my memory of any kind of worry for beeing some freak and people finding out.. i know im solid my whole life re family and enjoyed beeing a part of the family,,anbd even regarded myself a family man,,,, my lifes been picked apart every normal situation made to looj abnormal... ie....a mothers question to me regarding her little girl and if she should wear a shirt or not at 10... to me at the time and given who was concerned was not neccesary as the age of the girl was too young in my opinion as to worry that any normal person would look at her,,, as i was not a concern nor hewr mother which are the two parties involved in my mind,,, thoughts of the bad people in the world were not in my mind... jut her mother asking this question brings a normality to the event,,obviouseley there are abnormal persons in the world and im sure her mothwer knew that before asking me the question..thats a given in life...what isnt is whos around and how u think of people around ie there good or bad...my thoughts are that people are goood they relate these two situatiobns as opposing,,,,i commented that if a man doesnt feel necceraliy in charge or doesnt whant to get involved with young children in a given situation this can be caused from things like feeling alienated or the black sheep phylosiphy..or atributed to a bad mood....not knowing a father or feeling he looks at me low is a reason for shying away like there his kids and im not worthy in a way to be around only has to do with self esteem..knowing of that in the world,,age wouldnt matter..that word signifies kids,,, period...one situation regarding anothers mind of you..not understanding you or knowing you any known problem of man can come into the mind,,,doesnt have to but one can know of that in society and until a man is knownn he could doubt another doubting him...theres no limit to a mans paranoia of what abother could think of him. good human nature phylosephy sjows this..\ a mans thoughts not knowing another man... mqany types of man in the world.. if man has no self identiy as he is not known by others..he will most certantly in a gebneral way not not know that a man doesnt understand him... to say man is good is to understanfd that man is held up by another man,,, his instictual caring is that which strenghtens hm by joining him with others..if abother worked for me in the way of my needs instead of me or knew me as much as i know myself..thered be no need to communicate in terms of gaining a positive affirming reaction of you know me.... an animal procreates...it doe snot think of how it does as right or wrong... my mind control experience forced me to understand mans thinking in terms of his nature,, one could never make food illegal or the act of eating..one would think... however born into a world where sauy it already was illegal and one would be condiderd a miscreant if he fed himmself// one could say the nature of it is selphish he does it for the wrong reason and one could not trust abother with this,, might he eat his children if they tasted good... however much man is trusted with himmself is how much he will know about himmself... we are doubtful of what weve become as man has no ability to do on his own what even monkeys do on there own... id say a monkey needs a law before a man because he is not as smart.. man beeing good depends on man understanding him as a whole.... set apart as one is a serial killer or one.. my thoughts only think in terms of the unknown or bad in man as by my own feeling i can not know the one who controlds me only as questions as aqccusations....my thoughts become reversed upon what another could possibly think of me in a bad motive way,,,mans thoughts has to care what others actually think we may say we dont actually care thats different im saying his thughts on there own withourt the abiliyt to control do this,,, as neccesary to survive.. as one must know another one must know himmself as the self is comprised of thoughts of others mostly to be understood...if man is in a state of non knowing... this causes doubt in his self ..it also causes an unbfgaiur action to be caused upon him as where,, hedeserves fair treatment as another man,, your thoughts must be based in evidence as far as to what they say,, you cannot just say anything opinion must be based upon qright infomation...tests always that is sstating what has not happenned and what i in my life have made not happen your leaving me no room to live as saying even though i did right im still going to be giult....ivesaid love comes before ..ive sai d im fine with the law,,,,ive demonstarted my carring for the girl.... that was not anything harmful as long as she knew i was good and that i cared for her..as i dont want her thoughts to go haywire as to forget how she got up there,,,as other examples in life edianne drunk and left her alone yoing too,,, another youjbger wwwwoman needed a ride and she thought i wanted sex nope....gor almost sytabbed over people getting me wrog...... marthat singing to me learning of her roots.....