needed my clonidine a cop letting or not letting me feel it got worried worried he wouldnt trust the feeling like hed be paranoid not about me doing or beeing any bad way just that wjy would they take it in the first place a sense of trust with a COP THAT TIME AFTERT THRY PUT THAT MEMORY IN MY HEAD/GGGGGGV LFKLK       TRYIMG TO BLAIM ME FOR EVERYTHINH LIKE U HERE HAS NO EFFECT..,, if u accuse without relief or even say why this why thatr,,the brain gets worried about because were all connected to eachothetr,,,, like a worsr casse scenerio thougfht..like  were going along in the car theres peole it is1
f;;ee;ing watvche dwhen someones there zoe feels loooked ythrough like  ur controlling tjhere are regulat people in the world,,u give some back im not completeley used tto getting it back   mind knows someomne gave it back or is in control of u its all from tyhere perspective how u feel,,  so even inj4,,,,coming from a lacxe of guiltr im tryinmg to exlplain an innivent personb couldntr sau whjy whatever thoiught doesnt happen rightr now plus it was more a quick feeking in body that the brfain anylyzed bad not whatr i really fealt,,,thoughts not trysted ebnoughso  iot thinks something in terms o;sxl;.....lirwerLLY A  FEELING FOR A SECOND OF  worse case sceneio thinking,,,kinda like that,, where u knew itd be taken away if u thought or like they used to say there trying to leave,,,and i knew if i thought anything that looked like im bad theyd stay thta swhy every time id say or think by mi